It’s nearly a year since my Dad died and I’ve been spending a lot of time in the company of my memories. I remember one occasion when I was a teenager and had my heart broken by some silly boy, I came home in floods of tears. Both Mum and Dad tried to comfort me with the usual spiel about me being too good for an idiot like that. However, I was too deep in sorrow for their words to have the desired effect. The next day I woke with red puffy eyes after sobbing into my pillow all night. I trudged to the kitchen, Dad was waiting there with a cup of tea and a CD; it was the new album by Aretha Franklin.
‘Listen to this love.’
With that he bustled off. The first track was ‘A Rose is still a rose’, a sassy anthem for broken-hearted girls everywhere. One might not expect someone like my Dad to relate to the fierce wisdom of Aretha, but he was a subtle and mercurial man. He had a rather feminist outlook, he loved strong women and encouraged me to be gritty and determined. I listened to ‘A Rose’ on repeat for weeks, it became the my break-up canticle.
I had forgotten all about this chapter of my adolescence until the other day when I stumbled across the track on Spotify. Suddenly I was flooded by a deluge of memories. After I dried my tears I realised I carry Dad’s fortitude with me wherever I go; it’s the same strength that has dragged me through this first difficult year without him. I was listening to this song whilst applying my make-up and I found myself doing a soft, rosy hued look. I know it sounds trite, but doing my make-up is a self soothing activity that makes me feel equipped to handle whatever curve balls life has install for me.
I miss my Dad every day but when a forgotten moment in our history comes to visit, I’m reminded of how lucky I was to have had him in the first place.
Look out for a squirming, reluctant cameo from Cleo the cat. Here’s a list of the products I used.
Yves Saint Laurent Le Teint Touche Éclat Foundation
Laura Mercier Secret Camouflage Concealer
Nars Cosmetics Radiant Creamy Concealer
Bourjois Smoky Eyes Trio Eyeshadow
Urban Decay 24-7 Glide-On Eye Pencil
Charlotte Tilbury Full Fat Lashes Mascara
Becca Shimmering Skin Perfector
Kiko Velvet Touch Creamy Stick Blush
Bourjois Delice de Poudre Bronzing Powder
Bobbi Brown Natural Brow Shaper Hair Touch Up
Bourjois Long Wear lip pencil
Bourjois Rouge Edition Velvet Lipstick